A couple months ago I made a post on my whole obsession with playlists. Since then, I’ve been working on September Unknown.
Each list has meaningful songs, and titles. July Blues/July Hear my Thunder was a brooding, quiet mix. The Murder of August was frontloaded with oppressive heavy Metal, but slowly faded into not only inspiring pop like “Can’t Hold Us,” and JOHN CENA‘s “Time is Now.” In fact, despite having murder in the title, this was a fairly upbeat album, with four Christian rock songs in it even. I’m not a Christian, but there’s something to be said about the music of a believer. I generally don’t touch old playlists other than re-arranging for pacing, so it’s mostly been September for me, so if you want to hear more about the old, check out the old post.
Now, September Unknown. I don’t know why, but for whatever reason this ‘album’ has a lot, and I mean a lot of songs with long intos. Like, 7/13 songs as of 25th of September. I think this hints to my internal and external situation.
See, at the end of August I did a couple things. I moved back to my hometown, and I didn’t go back to university. (For financial reasons. I got all my credits.)
The move was lackluster. See, moving is my main trigger, I usually go into insane mania followed by a thrashy mixed state and deep depression. This move had none of that, and I expect the fact that I moved to a place I’ve already lived is the main reason for that. Finding a job took me this entire month, and I still am not sure when I’ll get a paycheck. See, I only really applied to two places and just procrastinated my days away for the last five or six weeks.
Luckily, it’s sort of working out in my favour. I have an interview set for tomorrow, and since the 15th I’ve been attending meetings at a financial office. Learning business and finance, interestingly enough. On top of that all, I’ve been developing my artistic talents. You know, the whole reason I went to university in the first place. See, this year, and maybe a few years after that, I’m saving and hoping to get my name out there. I’m going back to school for a BA in Drawing. At least, that’s the dream. We’ll see.
September is a huge unknown for me, but what I do know is that I’ve made progress. A lot of things have started. A lot more have continued. What I’m feeling right now is a lot of readers doubting me. “This kid is off his meds, he’s manic, and he’s starting projects that will eventually be abandoned or crash and burn when he becomes depressed. And… maybe you’re right. Maybe. But I’ve learned a lot about projects, and I have to say, I think that this one’s staying for good. This is about me, not what I can do. I’ve been updating my blog with writing pieces since August 3rd, releasing at least once a week and as much as four times a week.
Depression won’t stop me from having life passions, it’ll just slow me down. So, I know that I’ll improve. I have one, maybe two jobs. September Unknown, but October… well I can only hope the money rolls in by the hundred right?!
For those of you who want to support me, check out my blog and my deviantart. Or maybe my tumblr, where most of my posts from both sites end up anyway. Or, don’t, that’s fine. I get tons of rejections as an artist. Otherwise, thanks for reading and feel free to tell me how awesome or how wrong I am in the comments, right.
I’ve got plans for me. I’m here to prove that bipolar has no affect on what I can achieve.
And here’s the post on Reddit, if that interests you.